Somedays I am transported back to a memory of my past, and I think…
Why did I do that?
Why did I say that?
I can’t believe I acted like that.
My entire adult life I felt mature for my age. People always thought I was older than I was. I was always the youngest. Working with people twice my age a lot of the time. With most of everyone being 10 years older than me a lot. So perhaps I was mature for my age.
But, now when I am taken back to these memories, I think, Oh Tricia, you were so young. What were you thinking?
I had to make peace with my past. With these memories. With the immature ways that I acted, when I thought I was being so mature. Because I used to remember and cringe, feel physically sick and think no, that wasn’t me. I couldn’t have acted like that.
But it was me and I realized I needed to make peace with all that I was in order to truly accept myself for who I am now.
I wished I could erase those memories from not only my mind, but from the minds of people who experienced me in those ways. But, I can’t.
I had to get real with the fact that perhaps all that what I said, did, was….was necessary to make me who I am now.
If I hadn’t have been that person I was before, would it be possible for me the person I am now?
I don’t think so. I really don’t think so.
So, I urge you to stop cringing when you think of your past self. I urge you to accept that who you were was necessary. I urge you to forgive yourself. I urge you to trust that the path of your life has been perfect for you.
Perhaps the lessons have not unfolded yet, but once you accept yourself and forgive yourself you make yourself available to them. {click to tweet}
The past is the past and you can not change it now, but you can change how you feel about it. You can always change how you feel about you. And I promise you that life is a lot more fulfilling and fun when you accept yourself.
—FYI my forgiveness practice helps sooooo much with moving past the cringe and into acceptance.
