I have been feeling really, really, really good in my life, lately. I feel content in my body, in my work, in my relationship, in my friendships, in all of my life. And it is not because everything has been smooth sailing.
Everyday challenges show up, whether they be in my body, in my mind, in my business, in my communications, in my relationships… Some days in all of the above. But, that is life, it keeps showing up and it will keep showing up.
Ever since returning from my trips to South Africa, New York, and Soul Camp I feel confident, content and FREE.
I know that a big reason for all of this is because I know what I want and I’m trusting myself. I am confident in myself, but not with an ego, like I am Tricia or I am Joyologist, hear me roar.
I am confident in my body. I am not focused on losing weight, or fitting into a certain pair of jeans. I eat what makes me happy. Sometimes that is green juice, sometimes that is gluten free pizza. I make fitness a regular part of my week, but not because I want to be in shape. I do it because it makes me feel good in my body and my mind.
I am confident in myself in relationship and knowing what I want for the future and being clear with my partner. Making those moves forward and having conversations about them used to feel too big, uncomfortable and scary, but it doesn’t any more because I truly know that I am worthy of these desires.
I am confident in and so grateful for my friendships. For so long I was a cheerleader for my friends. Always giving, but didn’t let them in enough for me to receive. I would always a shoulder for them to lean on but I didn’t allow myself to lean on them. I am so happy I got over that! We all need a shoulder to lean on, even us strong, independent ones!
I am confident in my business. Moving into merchandising is really fucking exciting (I choose to use the word exciting over scary) which means me diving into fears, doubts, worries daily. It is a whole new world to me with lots of depending on other people, putting a lot of money down, and more, but I am confident. I am no longer frightened. When things don’t go as smoothly as I would have liked, it is no big deal. I am patient and I am excited. If one supplier doesn’t work out, I know it is because I haven’t found the right one yet. I want all of items I am visualizing to be in my store ASAP, but I am not rushing at the sake of losing quality.
This is what I really want and each day I am chipping away and making it more and more real! My first items are up in my shop now! YEEEOW!
I heard an interview this week about how the people that are often successful are those that have this feeling of I have something to prove driving them. I got that. I have definitely had that guiding me on some dreams, perhaps all of them. Of course we want to prove ourselves, prove what we can do and that are dreams are valid. But, I realize that this only really works when your heart is driving you.
I can think of a few dreams that I started to go after and definitely had the I can do this, let me show you, driving me. But, in those I never made it all the way. Somewhere along the push, I knew that I really didn’t care enough, that my heart wasn’t really there. That I was just doing it to prove something.
I always have to want my dreams for me first. I’ve gone after several dreams that seemed big and crazy and I have made them come true. I have also gone after dreams that along the way I realized it’s not what I wanted anymore. Or that my reasons for wanting them were not in alignment with my heart.
This past week, I have cried daily. Tears of joy. Tears of knowing that I am on the right path. My heart is really fucking happy. I launched my store (which I will be tweaking as I go). I sold my first items. I shipped my first sales!
Starting a merchandise with my favorite inspiring sayings is an idea I have had since I lived in New York City in 2010/2011. The designs that I am currently working with were all actually designed back then. The timing wasn’t right back then, I still had other dreams stirring and more living to do. I went to live in Italy and then back on tour for almost two years.
Now is the time and it is all coming together!
Dreams come true, people. They really do.
You have to believe in yourself. You have to work for them. But there is no expiration date on your dreams.
I am worthy of my dreams and so are you!
