Guilt. Ugh. How I wish it didn’t exist. I’ve only been a mom for four months now and I have already experienced the bullying of this terrible emotion. The second guessing. The worrying. The all encompassing that overcomes you when you feel guilt.
My being me I am at least happy that I have trained myself to recognize these shitty feelings so that I can work to overcome them and not be weighed down by them.
I don’t know even know what the guilt is about? Like sometimes I feel guilty for putting her down for a nap when she is obviously tired! It’s ridiculous!
I’ve decided that presence is the opposite of guilt. Because when I am present I am celebrating the current moment and perhaps looking to improve it but not making myself feel bad for a past choice even if that choice was a good one. When I am present I am not second guessing or thinking about what should be happening. I am alive. I am grateful. I am love when I am present.
That is the mother I choose to be. The present one.
So all those second and third and fourth guessing will have to spend time somewhere else. I am here now and it is time to go cuddle my beautiful baby as she wakes up from the perfect nap she took.
What guilt can you banish by simply being present to the now?
