I spin in my own web quite well.
Not having a “job” that I have to get out and to, such as an office, I find many being confused with how I occupy my time.
My brain spins and spits out ideas, possibilities, wants, edits, love, recognition, to do’s, and on and on endlessly. I actually mark things in my calender for events happening, due dates, travel ideas, other peoples schedules in more and I check it constantly. My mind is swimming constantly and I am able to pause it and focus on what I am doing when I am doing it, but I make a conscious effort to hit pause. Then, when I let it play again a huge circle of creation envelopes me. I want to write this, share that, make those, oh, what’s over there? I can be easily distracted and then
……woah….I just got transported away, seriously, and posted something on my website to the WHAT INSPIRES ME TODAY category and completely forgot that I was writing a blog, until I closed that window and this came back up….and then I saw the last words that I had written. PRETTY FREAKING PERFECT….
I also, have no concept of time and have taken to setting alarms throughout the day, when I have plans to be somewhere or want to do things. Otherwise the hours roll by and I have forgotten about things that I have scheduled or wanted to do that are outside of my internal web.
My web is a happy place. It is not a place of stress or lacking. I am giggling and spinning in circles of joy in my web. Yes, outside circumstances sometimes pop up to interupt my web, and I roll with them. The web is made of a material that is buoyant. It stretches, and takes on various forms without holding onto damaging dents.
In my web, I get to create ways to take time outs. Even though, I spend days doing what I want and creating what I want, and making my own “schedule” it is easy for me to forget to take a load off. To not be attached to To just sit and enjoy, to do my yoga practice and take a walk. This week, I have allotted for myself one hour of laying on the beach, book reading time. I can take it at any time of day and it is truly a gift.
Thank you self, you are welcome self. We got to take good care of our selves, and remember that our community is always here for us when we want support.
